Monday, December 17, 2012

Tis the Season

Well folks, it's here.  Whether we are ready or not!  just in case, you weren't already counting down the days until the magical morning of December 25th.  Christmas is always a fun time for my family to all get together.  We cook, and EAT and sing our little hearts out.  For those of you who aren't familiar, the Scriber's hold a strong musical gene.  Some are more...(how do i put this)... talented than others, but we can all pretty much carry a tune!  Some of my greatest memories are having Christmas Eve at Aunt Ann's house.  We would sing Christmas carols for what seemed like hours.  Daddy would bring his guitar, along with sheet music for everyone to follow, complete with the direction of myself and cousin Erin. And cue, "it's a marshmallow world in the winter..."
I had originally planned on posting pictures of these proclaimed events, and then I took a good look at myself as an awkward 8 year old with glasses and braces, and decided to retract that thought.  You're welcome. 

So Christmas will be a little different this year, but we will all feel the love just as we do every year.  Because my Mom is so thoughtful and loves shopping for us, she usually is completely finished with shopping by now. She has not been able to do that this year, so the ball is now in Daddy's court.  Daddy is actually a great gift-giver, he just needs to step outside the box sometimes. ;)  This year we made a family decision to make it just about Jesus, our family, and our time together.  The kids will receive gifts, but as for the adults we are taking it down a notch.  *Confession: I enjoy giving gifts, I really do.  Especially when you are just casually shopping, not even looking for anyone in particular and you see THE perfect gift, and you just can't wait to see their face when they open it!!   Well.... i'm just gonna be real honest, this scenario doesn't happen to me very often.  And when it does, I snap into the Christmas Spirit, and move on to the next person on my Christmas list.  So, then i'm back at square one.  And Seriously, WHAT do you give a Dad who already has everything, and if he doesn't... well, he just goes and buys it himself.     

Now, don't get me wrong.  I love a gift.  In fact, I REALLY love a gift.  Perhaps it's my maturity, perhaps it's my overwhelming realization that really, I have everything I need. But either way, As long as Jonathan and I spend every minute possible with each of our family members, my heart will be smiling.  

Oh yea, one more thing.... MAMA IS COMING HOME!!!  Wednesday is the day! (hopefully)  It will definitely be before Christmas, and I can't think of a greater blessing!  Daddy has been bringing her home on Saturdays and Sundays just for the day.  We visit, eat, take naps, just like any other weekend.  Saturday she was walking by herself (whoa!) just like any other day at the house.  Thank you, Jesus!  Our great Physician has prevailed once again! 

We usually spend Christmas Eve with my family, and do Christmas morning at Mama and Daddy's, then head on over to the great city of Shreveport for Jonathan's family.  However, we are heading to Shreveport early this year, spending a couple of days in Shreveport before Christmas, and then making our way back to Ruston Christmas Day.  I've never been to Christmas Midnight Mass.  I am pretty excited about this!  I may be thinking differently when it's 1:00 in the morning and can barely keep my eyes open, but none the less, I am thrilled!  I love that Jonathan's family has many different traditions than mine. These are reasons that we are always doing something new and fun.  Whereas, our families are very different, they are also alike in the way that there is just so much love!  

Merry Christmas from the Walsh's!  May we not be caught up in the stress of Christmas. May we truly value our time with our families.  May we be overwhelmed with Jesus' love, and his promise.  For this, is the reason for the season.

MaryBeth 

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Joy in the Journey

I will begin my post with a bible verse that has been huge component in my life lately.  

         "May the God of hope fill you with all joy

          and peace in believing, so that by the 
          power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in
          hope."  Romans 15:13
                     

I have hope. I have never lost faith in God, who gives me hope and joy to live this life for Him.  Just when I think I might be losing sight of what really matters, he pulls me up right where I need to be. Although my mother has been through such undeserving circumstances, I truly believe that we can find joy through this experience. 


Because I have had an ABUNDANCE of feedback from my previous posts, the updates are high in demand.  So, here you have it folks... an update. Sorry it only took me a month!  I'm sure you all understand, since my life has been nothing less than a whirlwind.  But still we push through it.  My family and I have been extremely grateful to be able to witness the miraculous works of God in my mom's life. This week it is 8 weeks since "the accident" and WOW have we come a long way?!


Since my last post, Mama was still at LSU-Shreveport hospital and had woken up from a 5-day coma.  Well, she has experienced leaps and bounds since then.  She was moved to Ruston October 27th. And what a beautiful day that was.  We were so very thrilled to have her "home" in good ole Ruston, LA.  I remember driving away from the hospital thinking, anytime we return to LSU will be WAY to soon. The hours, tears, and coffee we have participated in that hospital were far too many to want to enjoy. Daddy and I drove away and the song "Remember When" by Alan Jackson (cheesy, i know) came on the radio.  Tears were streaming down my face.  Remembering the good times, and how far we have come in this situation overcame my heart with joy. Life is full of making memories and it hit me in that very moment to attempt to find absolute Joy in life God has so graciously granted us.


So we arrive in Ruston at LifeCare, and Mama gets settled in.  The trip over wore her out and she remained very tired the rest of the day.  The next two days were probably the most discouraged and sad I had felt thus far.  Watching her make small improvements each day was very encouraging and then all of the sudden she regressed. She wasn't able to communicate with us.  Although I still remained hopeful, it seemed as though she was giving up. I don't want to discredit her faith, because we had no way of knowing what she was thinking or feeling. But I was sad. very sad. After everything happened so fast, and witnessing such miraculous works, I was sure moving her to Ruston would be even better. I know that being sad is part of watching a parent hurt, but sad is kind of an understatement. My heart hurts.  My heart hurts for her, because I can see her frustration when she tries to speak and nothing comes out. With the doctors prognosis, we were finally able to see progress again. And just like that we were back on track.


She remained at LifeCare for another few days, and she was then moved to Alpine in Ruston.  Hold your horses, this isn't a nursing home.  When I first heard that she was being moved to Alpine, I was like ummmmmm no Nursing home for my mama just yet!  But we are pleasantly surprised with the wellness facility.  Here she receives the necessary and close attention from the nursing staff, with very aggressive physical, occupational and speech therapy.  All the nurses LOVE her. which is no surprise! They all talk about how sweet and blessed she is.  Well of course we already know that, but it's nice to hear her caretakers have the same opinions. Not to mention Daddy makes sure they don't skip a beat, if you can believe that (ha!)  They may be a little intimidated, but that's just the way it goes when Dr. Scriber's in the house! :) 


Between Daddy, me, and my sisters, there is always someone there to visit with her so that she remains comfortable.  She still isn't up for too many visitors, except for our extended family.  Lord help us, Alpine has never seen so much traffic in the halls! But we wouldn't have it any other way. 

SO Thanksgiving day was quite different this year to say the least.  We were able to bring Mama HOME for the day.  And what a great day it was!  She was up and ready when Daddy went to pick her up, she was more than ready to see outside of the hospital walls.  My entire family was at home to great her when she arrived.  She was a little overwhelmed and not real sure how to react but she eventually livened up.  Robin and I took her "shopping" in her closet and got her dressed up for the day. and that was a special moment.  Daddy smoked the turkey, Robin and Stacy made the dressing and all the fixings, and I vastly enjoyed all of it!! (JUST kidding, I contributed with my corn casserole :)) so mama was able to enjoy her first real meal in 6 weeks.  She was even able to enjoy a cup of afternoon coffee.  That's how we know she is almost herself again.  The woman loves her some coffee. 

The next day was her birthday.  This again was a very special day.  My sisters and I organized a birthday party. It was the real deal complete with a cake, presents, decorations, and smiles. We were so thankful to be able to spend another birthday with her.


So here we are a week after thanksgiving and the hustle and bustle of Christmas has begun.  It might be another unique holiday for us, but we are praying hard that she will be completely moved home by then.  She is making immense progress in her therapy.  Today, I witnessed her walk to the kitchen (95% on her own) and helped me make brownies to go with our afternoon coffee.  considering she was in a coma 7 weeks ago, this is a BIG DEAL!! She remains the strongest person I know, and her abilities amaze me everyday. Praise the Good Lord!


And as for the rest of us, we are very proud of our mom.  And whereas it is an extremely busy time of year between school, work, family, etc. we take the time to be there for her.


Daddy is still the most amazing man I know.  He is so encouraging and loves, and I mean LOVES his wife! What a Godly example of what a marriage should be.


A special thanks to all of those who have prayed, sent cards and supported me and my family through this time.  Cook Baptist Church, well they are just an awesome reminder of prayer warriors.  The church body has always been there for my family, especially when Mama underwent her first battle with Cancer 24 years ago.  THANK YOU CBC!!!  

It doesn't stop here though, The Bridge Community Church has also been a tremendous channel of love and encouragement. We feel overwhelmed with just how caring and kind this church is.  I have had many conversations with people, even those I do not know, who are praying for my mom. I just can't say thank you enough!
Also a big thanks to my Tech Family.  You guys are AWESOME and I thank allllll of you for making my days at work just a little bit easier. 
To ALL of our family and friends, you know who you are, and of course THANK YOU for always beings there.  For some of you, this has been hard for you too because she is your friend, your sister in law, your aunt or whatever the case. I may be a bit selfish when it comes to sympathy, but even when I don't want to talk, or even when I just need a hug, I can count on you.  God has placed each and everyone of you in my life and for that I am extremely grateful. 
Once again, I am so sorry about my long blog posts.  This is why I should blog more often!! I promise I will try to find the time to update more frequently.

In conclusion,  This journey is far from over, but as I mentioned earlier, I have attempted to find joy through it all. By definition, Joy means a state of happiness. Happiness can be further defined several different ways, but we all know what makes us happy and how to respond to happiness.  So my challenge to you is to find JOY in every step you take.  The Joy of the LORD is my strength, and this my friends is my anthem. The Lord has given me the strength I didn't even know I had. And I am forever thankful to serve a God who continues to love me, help me, and hold my hand through this journey of life.



That's a wrap, folks!  Until next time!


Much Love,

MaryBeth

Monday, October 22, 2012

My mom is my hero

I suppose it's time for a little update. And by a "little" update, I mean a Big update.  The past 10 days have been such a whirlwind of emotions that i'm not so sure where to start.  October 11th, I wrote a blog titled "Birthday Blues."  Yall, birthday blues are a thing.  I promise.  I was going on about how I was absolutely not excited about being one year older.  For what ever reason, The big 28 terrified me. I did not actually post the blog, it was saved as a draft because I wanted to add some pictures of what turned out to be a really great day!   Little did I know what would happen a few short hours later would drastically change my view on life.  The gift of life.  So that afternoon. my sister, Stacy, and I were invited to "Wiggin' Out."  (Super fun event, by the way!)  My sister's BFF, Beth, picked us up for a night out on the town celebrating the life of cancer survivors and remembering those we have lost to cancer.  I had an uneasy feeling at first, because here we are "having a good ole' time" while our mother was at home very sick from her previous Chemo treatment.  It is a fantastic cause, none the less, and I was happy to be a part of it.

So, I got the call. Daddy called me to let us know Mama had a traumatic fall, and hit her head.  "It's pretty serious, you girls need to get here soon."   Beth came to the rescue and drove me and Stacy (probably going 100 mph... shhhhh!) directly to the hospital. Beth is such a Godsend.  She was very calming through the whole situation and was there for my family the entire time.  Thank you, Beth Davis, I'm not real sure what we would have done without you!!

*Disclaimer:  The following information will prove my ignorance in medical terminology.  Please forgive :)

So, the waiting began. and we were all an emotional wreck. Daddy was very worried, which worried me even more.  Mama was airlifted to LSU- Shreveport.  Not only are her doctors in Shreveport, but LSU has the best trauma and critical care doctors.  And only the best for Mama!!  We met with the doctors once we arrived to the hospital, and learned that she had an internal bleeding brain hemophilia. She needed surgery immediately to relieve the pressure of the blood to the brain, but because of her chemo, her body would not be able to handle surgery at the time.  The doctor agreed that we would wait until the morning to conduct surgery in hopes for better results.

Her surgery was Friday October 12th.  Her white blood count was extremely low, her platelets were also extremely low; surgery was absolutely necessary, but it was unknown if she would survive undergoing brain surgery.   We witnessed our first miracle, She made it through a successful surgery!!!  The doctor was pleased.   Praise God, for He is our ultimate miracle worker!

I think the most difficult part was not knowing if Mama was going to live or not. The fact that she made it through surgery gave us hope.  I could not imagine my life without her.  She was finally in a good place, her cancer was shrinking, and she only had one treatment left!  Nowhere on my radar was the concept of her not being able to communicate with us because of a brain injury.  So having to adjust my emotions from one sickness to another, and realizing everything Mama was experiencing was extremely heartbreaking.

And So we pray, and wait, and pray some more to wait and see if she will wake up. I have never prayed so much in my entire life.  God was, and still is, with us every single step of the way.  I found comfort is knowing how many people were praying for her, whether they knew her or not.  Mama is one of the most Godly women I know, and he understands her pain.  Except she wasn't in pain. and I thank the good Lord that she wasn't able to be in pain.  I literally pictured God holding her hand while she laid there resting her eyes, in preparation for her body to heal. She is now in a coma caused from her head trauma.  I think this was the hardest part, watching our precious mom "resting" and begging her to open her eyes.  Just once.  I just wanted to see her again.  I missed her so much, and I felt helpless.  Over the next 5 days, she rested, with very little progress.  The doctors were not very encouraging.  Emotional does not even describe the situation.  We cried tears many tears.  Tears of sadness, and fear, and hope.   Not only did we feel helpless, because she was in Neuro ICU, we were only able to see her 3 times a day, for 30 minute sessions.  With the LARGE and Ultra supportive family we have, we never felt alone.  The Scriber and Thomas family came through for us once again.  It was such an overwhelming feeling to know just how MANY people love her.
Wednesday October 17th she woke up!!! PRAISE THE LORD!  She opened her eyes!  The moment she squeezed my hand, I knew God was not finished with her yet.  The Great Physician has created another miracle!  Tears of absolute JOY this time!! She would not take her eyes off of Daddy.  Probably the sweetest thing I've ever seen. When we had to leave visitation, she motioned Daddy to come back, she did NOT want him to leave her side.  And that right there, is what you call Love.

Over the next 4 days, she continued to make small improvements. Robin, Stacy, Daddy and I were mostly there the entire time.  Talking to her every minute we could, reading her scripture, trying to make her laugh.  Research proves that coma patients hear everything.  So we made sure to let her know we were not going anywhere.  We would keep her updated on our daily lives, as if she were right there living it with us. Every single visitor that came to see her, we made sure to let her know how many people are praying for her to recover.

Jonathan and I spent the entire day at the hospital on Friday.  Daddy didn't want to miss a minute, but he needed to get to the house and take care of some things.  Each time we went to her room, I saw major progress.  She was extubated (removed her breathing tube) and is now able to breathe completely on her own.  And it's official, Mama likes Jonathan more than me! Well of course that's not true ;), but she definitely gazed at him the whole time! (probably wondering why he shaved his beard, but that's a different conversation, haha! )  I never knew how much I loved holding her hand until I couldn't do it anymore.  My most precious moments are of her looking at my eyes, and squeezing my hand.  This is how I know she's going to be Okay. She is going to beat this, just like she defeated cancer, just like she's going to defeat cancer again.  She is THE most courageous person and such a fighter.  She will never give up, until the Lord allows her.

Sunday October 21st, she was moved from ICU to her own private room!!! HALLELUJAH!!  She is steadily making more and more progress.  Now moving both sides of her body.  Even trying to talk to us! It's actually funny how quickly she has rebounded to some of her old habits, hand motions and such. I can tell she gets frustrated at times because she seems a bit confused, but we are patiently helping her work through it all. She is doing SO well, and her progress continues to amaze me.  There is a very long road of recovery ahead, but we pray for continued improvement as she regains her strength and cognitive abilities.  Thanks be to God, the ultimate Healer.  I have witnessed miracles, and for that I am ever thankful to our Gracious Lord.

So, there's the story.  I left out LOTS of details, but there is no way I could have relived some of those memories.   THANK YOU to those who have prayed and continued to pray for her healing and progress.  I can't even begin to express just how thankful my family and I are for all the love and support.  Whether it is those who have visited the waiting room, brought us meals, sent encouragement, the list goes on and on.
We are unbelievably touched by your kindness.

Psalms 62:8
"Trust in Him at all times, you people: pour out your hearts to God, for he is our refuge."

Welcome to the good life, people!  Life is too precious to not enjoy it.

MB

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Can I get a Hallelujah!?

In the hustle and bustle of school, work, football games, Christmas shopping (wait, what?!?)... The beautiful month of October has finally arrived!  I LOVE this time of year!  I don't think I'm alone on this one, because this weather is amazing!  

So not only is October one of my favorite months, but yesterday, October 1st, was off to a Fantastic start.  My family and I received news that my Mom's Chemotherapy is working!!!  HALLELUJAH!!  And for those of you that know me and my obsession to imitate Madea Hallelujerr!!! (Please don't judge ;))
Mama had an MRI last week to test the progress of her treatments.  The results came back that the cancer has already shrunk by 30 % ! This is great news! Considering that she has been extremely sick while enduring her treatments, it was very encouraging to know that perhaps this will all be worth it!  Let me get one thing straight, I had no doubt in my mind that she would beat cancer.  TWICE.  As I've said before, she is absolutely the strongest woman I have ever known.  When I received the news, I was unbelievably overwhelmed with joy.  While the tears were streaming down my face, all I could say was "Thank you, Lord!"  Even when it is has been challenging to always keep the Faith, God has continued to have a lingering presence to give me peace about this situation.  I'm not so sure I have ever prayed so much in my life. I am SO very happy for her.  She has continued to stay positive and keep her spirits high.  But it doesn't stop here, Mama began her 3rd round of Chemo yesterday, with hopefully only 3 more to go.  Although the cancer is slowing shrinking, but if at all possible, we need it alllll gone.  She will still endure more sickness and all that goes with her treatments, but knowing that she has the prayer support from SO many people in our community is definitely a little bit more encouraging. Both of my sisters, Robin and Stacy, have requested via facebook that if you feel led to mail her a letter of encouragement and prayer to please do so. I would like to extend this invitation if anyone reading my blogs and kept up with her progress. She has literally received hundreds of mail! It has been such a blessing to watch her light up when she reads letters from those who are supporting her, whether she knows them or not!  In fact, much of her mail have been from people she has never even met.  I've noticed the incoming mail has slacked off because of the "natural cycle of cancer supporters."  Apparently it's a thing.  I hope I don't offend anyone but from what I understand it goes a little something like this.. Everyone is supportive at first, and everyone wants to rejoice when we get good news, but it's the people who are there in the middle of the hard times that help make it a little bit easier to fight.

In reading my bible, I would like to share a verse:

1 Peter 5:6, the bible says “Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time.”

The scripture tells us that in due time, God will lift us up.  In due time, HIS TIME.  His timing is perfect and he will come to you.  Remember to wait on the Lord.  Trust in Him to deliver on time, for it is His time to give.  Timing is everything, and although it is sometimes hard to be patient, trust that God is here.  All the time.
Can i get an Amen?!

I hope everyone has an AMAZING week!

Oh, and HOW BOUT THEM DAWGS!?

MB

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Fall is in the air (kind of)

I want to thank each of my readers to take the time for reading my last post.  It was extremely hard for me to collect my thoughts and emotions to submit a deep and thought-provoking post about my mother. There were still so many things I wanted to say but couldn't quite find the way to convey my exact feelings. God is truly working in my life, and definitely working in our family.  We have pulled together in this trying time, and become closer than ever.  I'm not so sure there weren't days that Mama didn't want to give up, but knowing how much her children, especially her grandchildren, and other family and friends have prayed and supported her, she has bounced back to her normal self.  Her health has immensely improved since her first round of chemotherapy.  It was extremely hard to watch her so sick for a couple of weeks, and my goodness I cannot even imagine how hard it was for her to actually experience it.

I felt convicted after my first post that I was being selfish in the way I was feeling or thinking.  After all, SHE is the strong one who has to endure such a difficult regime of medicine and sickness. Thankfully, she slept about 90% of the time, so hopefully she wasn't able to really know how sick she was.  She began losing her hair, which I thought would freak me out.  But honestly, she's beautiful regardless.  Hair is just hair.   She asked me if it bothered me that I was watching her go through this.  My answer was Absolutely not! I literally would not want her to go through all this without me and my family.  The thing I struggled the most over the past month was when she was so sick, she couldn't even keep her eyes open to focus on eating, much less have a conversation.  When I'm upset, she is my go-to person, and when she isn't available for me to talk to, that's when I lose it.  Praise the Lord, she has recovered (for now).  I am terrified that after each round of chemo, she will go through the dark sickness and aftermath of the medicine.  Over the past week the doctor has been very impressed with her results and has changed her medicines so that hopefully she will not be as "sick".   Her second round began this past Monday.  And she will be able to return home Friday.  Daddy has been a trooper, of course, and has stayed with her the entire time.   THANK YOU again for all of the prayers, letters, thoughts, hopes and love.  She and our family appreciate more than words can express.  Round 2 down, 4 to go...


On to other topics, soccer season has officially begun!  Fall soccer that is. Thankfully the weather has eased off of the stifling hot temperatures, and being outside is much more enjoyable.   As most people know, Jonathan is obsessed with soccer.  The man has a passion for the sport unlike anything I have ever seen.  While I have never been familiar with the sport, I am gradually learning more about it and have grown to love it as well!  I have always been a fan of sports, so soccer, or futball to be technically correct, is yet another elite game that has made it's way into my life.
Jonathan recently accepted a job as the Technical Director of Coaching for NELSA.  North East Louisiana Soccer Association is based out of Monroe, LA but kids participate from all over the region, including Ruston.  While he coaches the U-14 boys and the U-18 boys, he also is the director of the entire club, their teams, their coaches, and the technicality of the sport.  I may be quick to judge, but this is a huge job for him to take on.  However, he wouldn't have it any other way, and he is handling this huge task exceptionally well.  Coaching is his dream, and to be able to coach AND be the director of the Club,  he is loving every minute of it.  The beginning stages have been very stressful, political, and time-consuming,  He spends most of his days, when he's not hanging out with his awesome wife, hosting practices and meetings for the kids and parents.  I am SO very proud of him! Not just for being a Fantastic coach, but for following his dreams and pursuing the one thing that could make a difference in kids' lives.
Did I mention that Jonathan is no longer in the restaurant business??? Thank goodness, I really thought this day would never come.  He is vastly enjoying his time at home to do things of his own, focus on his last 2 quarters at Tech, and be the best husband he can be.  So far i have loved having him home every night! I'll let you know if i still feel the same in a couple weeks... (only kidding)
Um so it appears to me that I am a writing rambler... sorry guys!!
So, here we are, at the beginning of soccer season, and I am the coaches wife.  I know many women who deal with the pros and cons of being the wife of a coach, but I'd like to think I am fitting right in. Everyone has been very welcoming to Jonathan.  I love the he includes me in every single aspect, and that he enjoys that I want to be at the games.  Not just for him, but to support the players, their parents, and game. The past two weekends have been packed full of soccer tournaments in Shreveport and Lafayette.  We have a couple more scheduled, and then on to high school soccer!

It's FALL, and I love it!!  Football has officially kicked off and we are so excited to go to all the games we can. Go Dawgs!! Now that Jonathan has a much more flexible schedule, we will probably be able to attend Ruston High games too!  I think one of the main reasons I enjoy Fall so much is because it reminds me of my birthday! haha!  Anyone that knows me knows that birthdays are a big deal! I love that each and everyone of us has ONE WHOLE DAY to be selfish and celebrate our lives!  My favorite thing about October 4th is the fact that I can spend time with all of my favorite people! gifts are optional (but not really) Totally kidding. The older I get, the less excited I get about my birthday, so I embrace the fact that I can spend quality time with my loved ones.

HAPPY FALL!  I hope everyone enjoys this beautiful weather while it lasts!

MB

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

one year later...

Well hello. We meet again after one whole YEAR! whoa. And back to the world of blogging I go!  I have recently been inspired to start blogging again.  Throughout the past year, I often thought... hmmm, I might should blog that.  And then I think "i love my life, but let's face it, I don't have any big news, nothing great to share that anyone on this planet would be interested in." Turns out, I should write for myself.  It has proved to be therapy of sorts, and let me tell you, I got some things to talk out.   I have recently been inspired to exercise my writing "muscle."  You see, it was explained to me that writing is a muscle, the more you exercise it, the more a writer develops their creative talent.   I am not so much a destined "writer,"  however, I do think I am intelligent enough to convey my thoughts to paper.  So this is me...exercising.

So much has happened over the past year, and I will spare you every detail, so allow me to begin with what's going on right now. This summer has been ultra busy with my work, Jonathan's work and soccer schedule, full-time school.etc.  Boy, did we need to get away from this town.  So July 1st,  Jonathan and I packed up and drove down south for our only "vacation" this summer.  We took a driving tour around Louisiana and visited the hot spots of our great state!  We were able to hit up New Orleans, Baton Rouge, Lafayette, and Shreveport.   The best part is that we were able to visit with several family and friends throughout the 4-day adventure, and we had a BLAST together!  Below is a picture visiting the Abita Brewery. Cheers!




July 4th is the day that ROCKED my world. A day that is generally spent at the lake, grilling, celebrating America and such.  I get a call from my Daddy at 9:02 am with the devastating news that my mom's tumor biopsy results came back cancerous. My mama is literally the most precious, sweet and loving person in my life.  I've been through a couple heart breaks in my life, only one to really speak of, but to know that the most amazing woman in my life has to undergo yet another battle of cancer, shattered my heart.   A little back story... I will try to wrap it up in  nutshell, but really there's no such thing when it comes to me telling a story but here goes...  The first time Mama underwent her cancer battle, She was 32 years old, and I was four years old.    I don't have many memories of the "the sickness."  Obviously,  four years old is far too young to comprehend the extent of the disease.  In fact, I remember my grandmother staying with me and my sisters for a while, but other than that life resumed as normal in my eyes.  Everyone has a different definition of normal, and as soon as Mama went into remission, my life resumed and I had a close-to-perfect childhood.  I had extremely loving parents, who supported me, and raised me to love the Lord and to enjoy life.   My mom has always looked different to people. I am ultra sensitive to this and constantly find myself trying to protect her from stares, or looks in public.  Her first cancer trial led her to many, many surgeries leaving scars and deformities on her face.  However, I believe she is THE most beautiful person on this planet. Anyone that knows her, can honestly say that she is one Amazing woman.  As a friend, a mother, a wife, a sister, an aunt, a grandmother, and all of her many titles, she positively touches each and every person she meets.  She is shy, and quiet, yet funny.  The woman is has got to be witty to keep up with the Scriber Clan!!

As if being woman doesn't bring enough insecurities of it's own, my mom has a constant reminder of the results of cancer.  However, it is also a constant reminder of LIFE and the blessing of God's healing grace.  I truly believe that God allowed her to show his mercy more visibly than most can bare.  She is a walking testament of strength and faith, and she will forever be the most influential woman in my life.  And my Dad, well he's just amazing.  He has been by Mama's side every step of the way.  The man is the best example of a Godly husband who honors his wife through sickness and health.  He has loved her through it all, and never left her side.   These parents of mine, wow, they give me hope of life and although times are tough, their faith in God has truly proved their blessings in life.  And my sisters?? well, there is a reason they say your sisters are your best friends.  Seriously, they are awesome.  We have all had our struggles with dealing with The Big C, but we stick together. and laugh and cry and chat and eat and laugh.  I mean seriously,  sometimes you just need to laugh it out!! and we are pretty good at the loud obnoxious "I can't believe she's laughing so loud" laughter.  We are several years apart, and we are very different in our own quirky ways.  But one thing is true.  They love some Jesus, and that's all I need to know.

SO fast forward, 24 years, and we are back at square one.  Cancer has returned, and I am an emotional wreck.  Not only am I devastated that Mama has to go through Chemo and all that comes with it ALL over again, but seriously how much can one person handle???   This time, I am nearly 28 years old, and fully capable of knowing every single detail of her sickness.  I want to be there each second to make sure she knows just how much I love her.  It has been an extremely rough few days, and it is only the beginning.  I pray for her strength, that she will beat the Big C, so this can yet again be another testament of God's healing power and fulfillment of life on earth.
This picture was taken July 4th.  It was indeed a really great day; complete with family, food, and fun!

Although this hasn't been the greatest few weeks, I continue to count my blessings. I am definitely feeling the love.  Jonathan Walsh is amazing and has been there to support and encourage me and my family.  One of the many reasons I love this man is because he loves Mama unconditionally just as we all do. His support and encouragement means everything to me, and I can not thank him enough.  The prayer chain from my close friends and family has truly been a blessing.  To know that so many people, whether they know me and my family or not,  are praying for my mom has been so unbelievably comforting.  I am overwhelmed by how compassionate others can be, especially when you need it the most.

God has truly been working my life over the last couple of months.  Before Mama was diagnosed with cancer again, I began praying for patience, praying for understanding, and praying for direction in my life.  I had no idea what would be in store for me, but God is teaching me none the less.  With everything going on,  Jonathan and I have had other decisions to make.  Some are easy, some aren't so easy, but the bottom line is, God knows our purpose.  God knows exactly where we need to be, and we are learning to trust in Him with EVERYTHING we do.  I didn't know I was capable of learning so much within a short period of time, but God is my rock. and forever He will continue to guide me.

So here we are in August.  It is been a crazy month.  Celebrating 5 years of marriage has probably been the best part! Yes, I said that right... 5 YEARS! whoa, seriously, when did we grow up!?  Lots of changes will be in the works in the near future, but I can tell you one thing, there is no other person I'd rather go through this crazy life with.

Holy Moly, I just wrote a novel.
I apologize for the lengthy read.  Until next time... happy reading!