Motherhood

Motherhood. What a loaded term. There are seriously so many words to describe this profession I do not even know where to start.  Being a Mother is something no single person can truly prepare you for.  Not even your own mother! I was really banking on this! ;)

But in all honesty, being a mother has been the most loving, exhilarating, tiring, and addictive experience.  Though it's not something anyone can prepare you for, it's also the most natural job in the world.  I never knew I could love someone so much.  

My birth story:

So it all began on October 28th, Jonathan and I were due for a doctor's appointment.  After already being way past my due date, we knew it would literally be any minute.  I really thought I would have gone into labor 2 weeks early (or maybe it was just wishful thinking) and believe me, we pulled out all the tricks.  There is nothing I didn't try, except castor oil.  I was even on the back of a 4-wheeler the weekend I was due trying to speed things up! 

Back to the map... I began having contractions literally as soon as we pulled up to the doctor's office.  Painful, uncomfortable contractions.  It was the first time I had really, really felt this type of pain so I knew exactly what it was.  After visiting with the doctor and doing a quick ultrasound, we learned I was carrying an almost 9 pound baby. Whoa mama.  She strongly encouraged us to go into the hospital that night, for she didn't know if I could handle a natural delivery with me carrying such a large baby. 

Well, we went in at midnight (October 29th)  contractions were in full swing by 8:00 am.  Like the unbearable, I can't do anything but cry, kind of contractions.  So, bring on the drugs!! My epidural was painless and once that kicked in, I was golden.  I had many visitors in and out of my room.  Mainly family and close friends.  But I was so exhausted and STARVING that I just wanted to sleep.

No complications to speak of, except for one episode in which I will spare the details, and our beautiful baby boy was born at 5:48 pm. What an experience!!!  I was so terrified of the entire delivery process, that I wasn't sure how I was going make it. Through much prayer, and my support group (Jonathan and my Mom were in the delivery room with me) I made it.  And it was perfect.  Maurice "Auri" Joseph Walsh was 8 lbs, 11 oz and 21.5 inches long with head full of black hair!! None of these characteristics were surprising, but all too real once he finally entered our world. To date, delivering my son has been the most accomplished and proud I have ever felt in my life! An exhilarating feeling I will never, ever forget. 

After Jonathan and I spent an hour with our son alone, Jonathan then took him to introduce Auri to his fan club.  This was a special moment for him. Although I didn't get to witness it, Jonathan was so proud to be his daddy. With tears streaming down his face, his world completely changed.

There were so many emotions to follow after he was born, but first... what does a girl have to do to get some food!? 

Jonathan's dad came through for me with my very own Johnny's Pizza.  It was exactly what I wanted and boy was it the most delicious pizza I had ever tasted! 

The hospital stay was fantastic! No complaints here, St. Francis Medical Center comes highly recommended by the Walsh's!  I was literally sad to leave.  Mainly because I wasn't sure how I was going to function without my super sweet nurses waking me up at night telling me Auri was hungry.  But 48 hours later, we were definitely ready to get home. 

With much anticipation, fear, and excitement we made the drive home on Halloween night.  Auri is dressed to impress in his Batman costume.  Isn't he just the cutest thing you ever see?!

Driving away from the hospital, I lost it.  People tell you about postpartum emotions, but wow... I was a blubbering basket-case.  Sitting in the backseat with our son, my husband driving us home, my family is on the way to our little house.  It seemed so surreal.  A quick phone call from my sister, and I was laughing hysterically, so my tears of feeling overwhelmed turned into laughing tears.  

The first night home was a bit of a challenge, but we survived! Every night after that has gotten a little bit easier.  I wouldn't say I have the hang of it, but I am certainly close.  We have a schedule that seems to be working for us... you may have heard it: Eat, Sleep, Poop.  That is literally what he does. All day long.  The past couple days, Auri has been way more alert and staying awake more.  I have finally gotten in the routine of him eating in 3-hour increments.  What is most challenging, is figuring out what to do in between those increments.  I am usually faced with either cleaning, exercising or sleeping.  And I typically opt for the later.   

I can't seem to stop staring at my baby boy.  I could literally just look at him all day. We think he's pretty cute.  At 8 weeks old, he has begun to develop a personality that is precious.  He grins so much!  What a happy baby! 

There are times that I am so overcome with happiness that I could just cry.  My heart is literally so full of love for this little boy!  

Let's talk about Super Dad real quick.  My husband is AMAZING and what an INCREDIBLE Dad!!! Wow, I knew he would be great, but I didn't know he would be this great!! I don't know how I would make it without him.  He actually probably gets less sleep than I do.  But most of all, I adore watching him interact with our son.  It is heart-touching the way he is so in love with this little guy.

As a family, we are SO in love!!! 



This post is far overdue... Christmas festivities are to follow in the next few days! 

My Mom is my hero | Part 2

Here we are, a whole year later, 365 days, since my world was rocked from a horrible incident. I remember it so clearly,  my sister and I were at Squire Creek for the 2nd annual "Wiggin Out" party.  Stacy and I were having a great time socializing with friends, having a cocktail, and enjoying a beautiful night to raise awareness for cancer.  Then, it happened.  Daddy called. I knew something was wrong.  I was in such shock and disorient, that it was hard for me to even complete a sentence, but none the less, knew it was serious.  Beth Davis, being the superwoman that she is, got us to the hospital in 10 minutes flat.  The rest of the story has way too many details to mention, however, they are all explained in a previous blog I posted last October under "My Mom is my hero."  Here is the link if you are interested or need a recap http://jonathanandmbwalsh.blogspot.com/2012/10/my-mom-is-my-hero.html
Last night, Stacy and I attended "Wiggin Out" again, with much better memories from last year!  Always a fun time with these girls!! (Even if I am 9 months pregnant!)

And that statement is ever-so true to this very day.  My mom IS my hero.  She is literally the strongest person I know, and it is amazing to witness her physical and spiritual healing throughout this past year.  For those of you who aren't caught up, Mama is battling cancer.  And has been for quite some time.  A year ago, while undergoing chemotherapy, she had a tremendous fall, causing her to have a massive brain injury.  This  injury caused excessive bleeding to the brain and was barely operable.  God provided her with the very best neurosurgeon, who completed a life-saving surgery that brought her back to us.  Actually, God brought her back to us, but through the work of unbelievable doctors.   The next few months were a blur, ones that none of us care to re-live, but the bottom line is... Mama wasn't supposed to make it.  She wasn't "supposed" to come out of a coma. She wasn't "supposed" to speak again.  She wasn't "supposed" to walk again.  However, God had other plans.

This morning, I went to my parents house for breakfast.  Mama cooked me breakfast, we drank coffee, had our usual morning chat.  She walked me to the door and spoke the words she says every morning "Have a good day. I love you!"   I am having trouble finding the words to express just how awesome our God is.  He did this.  He is fully responsible for her physical healing, for our emotional healing, for our family, and for everything we have prevailed through.  As our great Physician, He deserves all praise.

It's the little things in life today that most people probably complain about or even joke about.  "Why is my mom calling me..." or  "Oh my gosh, Mom is on my nerves."  Yall. In this moment, a year ago, and for the months to follow, I would have done ANYTHING to receive a phone call from my mom.  In fact, after her first few rounds of speech therapy, Mom began using her phone again. One day she called me and I accidentally missed the call.  She left me a message on my voice mail.  I will never delete it. It is a fascinating reminder of her progress, her strength, and her determination to get back to her life.  Things aren't necessarily "back to normal," but we are making our daily lives as normal as can be.  Mama is still battling cancer.  But she is still with us.  God has her here with us for a reason!!  The reason isn't clear, but knowing it is a part of His miraculous plan is comfort enough.

Although life is so very different for my family and I, as we have all overcome the obstacles of the past year, I am so very thankful for the gift of life.  We take it for granted for too often. As I now reflect on my pregnancy, and knowing that I am 10 days (or hopefully less) from bringing a child into this world, I am overwhelmed with joy.  Pure joy.  God's plan for our lives doesn't always match up to how we want it to go.  But instead, I have complete trust that God's plan is perfect.  

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

 Jeremiah 29:11

I cling to the words of the Lord. I cling to the hope of a joyful future that I have no control over.  Please continue to pray for my Mom and for my family.  God's mercy and prayer have been the only thing to get us through some days.  She is hanging on strong, and will continue to do so until the Good Lord calls her home.  Thank you all for the love and support our family has received over the past year.  We cannot thank you enough for the calls, texts, cards, conversations, meals, and the list goes on.  

Janice Scriber, the woman we call Mama, wife, friend, family,  is *hands down* the greatest woman on earth, and I strive to be the person she is.

With much love,
MaryBeth

Counting the weeks

Third trimester... what can I say... It's been real folks, but isn't it time to have a baby already?!
Thus far, pregnancy has been fantastic! I feel great, not too very tired, but then... I look at my feet.  Yall, I promise you have never seen such swollen feet.  The funny part is, I have extremely skinny feet "in real life."  Like seriously, I have trouble buying shoes because my feet are so long and narrow.  Well. I am patiently waiting for the day that I can have my skinny feet back!!  I blame most of this on the miserable August heat, but I also realize this is completely normal for most pregnant women.  If I am having extreme difficulty even fitting in my shoes now,  I can't imagine what it will be like come October!  Because of my extreme discomfort,  my sweet, sweet husband massages my feet every night, which has helped tremendously.  So anyway, I really don't have too much to complain about!

My bi-weekly doctor visits have been going very well. This week I am 34 weeks.  Next week will be my last big appointment with a final Ultrasound, and then I'll begin my weekly visits.  At 32 weeks, I was measuring 34... so it looks like we have a big baby on our hands!  Or he will be early. My doctor has predicted he will be early from early on... and I am hoping her prediction is accurate!

We began our childbirth classes this week.  Topic of the my first class: Breastfeeding.  This topic is a little daunting to me, but I am certainly well-educated for when the time comes.  The nature of motherhood and how God can place the most perfect details into every little action is so amazing to me.  I mean seriously, He thinks of everything!!  The more I learn about the process, the more I am understanding just what a miracle pregnancy is.  And the fact that God chose me to bring a baby into this world is even more breath-taking.  I feel so blessed to be chosen.  I feel an intense desire to live a better life; for me, my child, my family, and for the Lord.  Pregnancy has rocked my world in so many ways, but I can't think of a single disadvantage of this experience.  I am forever thankful.

The nursery is coming right along... well kinda.  We have the necessities, if you will, but the organization is lacking a bit.  As my maternal nesting mood is slowing setting in, I am getting more and more eager to get everything in it's place.  Last weekend consisted of cleaning out closets and getting rid of unwanted items, and moving stuff to the attic.  THAT is a chore.

I am so in love with this little guy in my belly, I can hardly stand it.  I didn't expect such strong attachment (literal and physical) during this process.  It's so funny how I can already tell he has a spunky personality. That may sound silly, but I feel like I KNOW him already. And He's a joker, that little one. He thinks he's funny now, just wait until his parents get a hold of his sense of humor ;)

Showered with love

What a fun past few days!!  And most of the days have been amazing and full of family time!  Last Saturday was my first baby shower for Auri.  and WOW are we overwhelmed and blessed with the generosity of our special families.  Between Jonathan and I, we have an extremely large, extended family and seriously words can not express how grateful we are to be a part of such heart-warming, thoughtful people.
The morning of the shower started off strange for me.  I had an internal anxiety and excitement of seeing my dear family.  But more importantly, the thought of celebrating the upcoming arrival of our Son.  I mean, we are really having a baby!! We are really about to be parents.  We are really about to be solely responsible for another human being.  We really need to get with it on the nursery! (this isn't my main concern, but kinda).  Whoa!
So anyway,  Saturday morning, I'm flooded with emotions that I almost can't control.  I am praying outloud to the good Lord on my way to the shower about all of these worries and thoughts.  Mostly I didn't want them to consume my day, but my attitude was almost a selfish one and I needed to be put in my place.  And just like that, I feel a sense of relief and comfort.

Our baby boy is loved SO much already, and it is quite an overwhelming feeling.  The next few pictures are just a few snap shots from the day.  I had forgotten how much fun opening presents was! :) and exhausting!! haha, but seriously we received an abundant of necessary items to prepare for Auri's arrival and I am beyond grateful.

My Amazing Hostesses!! 

Although we weren't able to get everyone in pictures... I was able to get at least most of everyone!!

My beautiful ladies of Thomas family (Mama's side)

The Walsh ladies! 

And then the Scriber crew, minus a few!

I have more pictures from the shower if you are interested. Click here to take you directly to the link https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10100262408797958.1073741825.49703658&type=1&l=a189f49e9f 

Once again, Jonathan and I feel so blessed to such loving and supportive families.  

The fun doesn't stop here though!  We have some things planned for the upcoming weeks. One being maternity photos, and another baby shower hosted by a few of my awesome friends!  Before we know it, we will be welcoming our son into this great big world. 

Update on Mama:

I know several of you have continued to pray for Mom, and frequently ask how she is doing, and on behalf of our family, Thank you so much!! She is doing great!  The burden of cancer is still here, but she has not let it slow her down.  She isn't able to receive any additional chemotherapy, which has been discouraging for her.  But the good news is, she is embracing each day and living the life God has called her for.  One of the side effects of her tumor, and chemo, has been the loss of hearing.  A few weeks ago, she was only able to hear out of her right ear with only about 30% capacity.  This has been a huge discomfort for her, for it was extremely difficult for her to have conversations with people, especially in a crowded area.  I have prayed fervently for her to feel some sort of relief.  Not even really knowing what relief I was praying for, I just knew she needed a boost of confidence.  Last Thursday morning, something miraculous happened. She literally woke up and just like that, she could hear!! It isn't completely restored, but it is certainly enough for her to comfortably have conversations, and not even wear a hearing device.  She is just thrilled!! and I am so happy she is happy!  This may sound like such a petty milestone, but for us who see and talk to her everyday, this is huge.  She faces other daily challenges, but this has definitely given her a lift in her spirits.  I ask for continued prayers for Mama.  For Daddy, who is the greatest caregiver in the world.  And for continued progress in her situation.  We love her so very much, and is truly an inspiration to so many of us.  As of now, she is staying busy, enjoying their new home!  She has been so great in assisting me throughout my pregnancy; giving me advice, telling me stories, and just being there whenever Jonathan can't quite handle my hormones :)  

That's all for now.  Stay tuned! 

Taking it easy

Well, I'm almost 30 weeks! Time is seriously going by so fast! It's funny how all the sudden my life is based on weeks, but none the less, every single week is important.  I am learning that I am surely not moving as quickly as I used to.  I am extremely fast walker, almost as if I'm in a hurry everywhere I go.  However, this pregnancy has forced me to take it down a notch.  Whereas it used to take me 16 minutes to run 2 miles, it now takes me 16 minutes to walk 1 mile! But moving at a slower pace has allowed me to appreciate the physical exercise, thanking God for his beautiful blessings one step at a time.

About 4 weeks ago I developed an excruciating back pain.  Seriously, the worst pain I have ever felt, almost paralyzing in a sense that I literally could not take another step without collapsing.  At 25 weeks I had already began "the waddle" so many pregnant women only have in their last couple weeks of pregnancy.  Walking was painful, sleeping was painful. EVERYTHING was painful.  Jonathan was worried something wasn't right, so off I went to the Chiropractor.  I had never experienced this type of service before, and wasn't even real sure of what I thought about the practice.  But at this point I was willing to try anything. After getting approval from my doctor, I began seeing a local chiropractor.  And let me tell you folks, I am a believer in the chiropractic services!! WOW, I am amazed at how different and normal I feel.  It took a few days for the adjustment to settle in.  And don't get me wrong, the sessions were almost more painful than my actual pain, but I survived.  I am back in the game and feeling wonderful!

Last week was the dreaded glucose test.  I went in with no worries, drank my little orange drink (I seriously could have gone for another round, pretty tasty!) and off we went for the Doctor's visit.  The appointment went very smooth, we were able to see our litte Auri again and Wow is he is getting so big! 3 pounds already!  So funny watching him in there, wondering what he's up to.  After our appointment, we registered for labor and delivery at St. Francis.  Whew, just checking things off the list!
Speaking of checking things off the list... We finally bought a crib!  The room is slowly beginning to look like a nursery!  We searched for many weeks to find "the crib" and we just couldn't find exactly what we wanted.  We stumbled across a furniture store in Monroe and made the big purchase! We paid a little more than I anticipated, but it is absolutely perfect!

So the next couple days were a little discouraging.  My doctor's nurse called to tell me I didn't pass my glucose test, and I am possibly at risk for gestational diabetes.  I'm not sure why I was so surprised, but it certainly wasn't expected and it freaked me out a bit.  I went in the next day for the 3-hour extensive glucose testing, which isn't 3 hours at all.  Try 5 hours! Anyway, it was not a fun day.  So this lady loves to eat, even when I'm not pregnant... so, not being able to eat or even have a sip of water for an 18 hour span was very difficult.  My sweet husband waited with me for at least one of the hours in between lab work.  The clinic graciously gave me a room to rest instead of sitting uncomfortably in the waiting room.
Anyway, results came back and no diabetes for me!  But don't you worry, whatever that was, was a wake-up call for me.  I am certainly going to take it easy on the sugar and carbs.  Healthy Mama, healthy baby, right?!  I was so worried that all my selfish eating, mainly the ice cream I consume every night, would be potentially harmful to the baby.
I am feeling Auri move all the time now, and it is such a sweet, breath-taking, happy feeling. One day I'll feel him on my far right side, another day he is all up in my ribs.  Yesterday was a first, in that I could literally feel him on both sides of my belly.  Perhaps we have a dancer with quick feet with his hands up in the air.  I am far-enough in my pregnancy to "count kicks" to make sure his movement is healthy and normal.  So far, so good!
I have begun writing a journal to Auri about my experience and love for him.  I am uncontrollably in love with him already, and I can't imagine knowing how much the love can grow.  Jonathan and I have strongly enjoyed our time together during this pregnancy.  God has blessed us immensely, and I am truly grateful for my growing family.
We have a big weekend ahead of us... Our first baby shower!  We have family from both my side and Jonathan's side coming in town and I am SO excited to see our big, happy families!

Oh boy...

I haven't updated my blog in quite a few weeks, due to the fact that we have been ultra busy this summer! Let me take you back to 6 weeks ago, when we learned the gender of our baby...
Jonathan and I will be bringing a baby BOY into this world!   That's right, folks, Baby Walsh is certainly a boy.  We have had two great doctor's appointments since then, and it is such a thrill to "visit" our little guy. The first time we saw him was such an amazing experience!  Ultrasounds are far too detailed that I could have expected, and just like that...this pregnancy got REAL.  Being able to see his sweet little face and movement in my belly brought it all to reality.  I have so many thoughts and feelings, I really don't even know where to begin.  This is a picture taken right after we found out we are having a boy!!  If you look real close, you'll see a tear... :)  My sensitive husband is too sweet. 

We LOVE our doctor and her nurses, so we always have a pleasant experience.  It is crazy just in the past two weeks how much I can FEEL him moving.  It is exciting, strange, intriguing, worrisome, and uncomfortable all at the same time.  Jonathan has felt him kick a few times, and every day he says "What's little man up to today?"  He's such a sweet daddy already. 

So, let the preparation begin!  So many things to do in just 15 weeks!
The good news is, the nursery is painted!  Annnnddd... that's about all we have completed.  I was not aware of just how much preparation went into planning a nursery.  Jonathan and I easily agree on much of the same things, especially with design ideas and color schemes.     SO now the big question you're probably wondering is "What will you name him?!"   Our son is named Maurice Joseph Walsh.  We will call him "Auri" for short.  Auri's specific namesake is after his grandfather, Jonathan's father.  The name is very special to the Irish, Walsh legacy, and has been in the family for 8 generations (and counting).  I am honored to be a part of a strong legacy that has told a story for many, many years.  The Walsh family is truly one-of-a-kind, and I am very grateful to be part of it. 

So what better way to celebrate bring a son into this world, than to go to a baseball game!   We had a short get-away to Dallas at the beginning of June, mostly excited about getting out of town for a bit, but also to watch our favorite team the Rangers!    Friday night was a relaxing night.  Saturday morning I woke up early, had my quite time by the pool, and drank my coffee.  Jonathan and I grabbed a quick lunch and then headed to the ballpark with one of our good friends, Jesse P!  Jesse and his girlfriend, Marissa, were fantastic hosts for the day.  We began in the Capital One Club where, we were to catch up and enjoy the beauty of the field.  We then went down to our AWESOME seats.  We were 30 feet with Adrian Beltre, what?!?   The weather was perfect, complete with ballpark food and souvenir cups.  Although the Rangers, couldn't pull out a W, it was a great time with great people.
We bought our son his first outfit!

A couple of weeks have passed since our weekend trip to Dallas.  Jonathan and I both have been ultra busy with work and getting things done around the house.  Jonathan is still immensely enjoying his position as the Director of Coaching for NELSA (the soccer club in Monroe).  I am also still going strong with Louisiana Tech University, and also selling real estate with for Heritage Realty.  I am loving everything we have going on in our lives right now!!   Thank you, Lord, for the opportunity to do what we love. 

So Father's Day was special this year.  Jonathan as a father-to-be was treated extra special and I'm so very thankful to have him in my life and to  be the father to our little boy.  I gave him a small token of my appreciation, which happens to perfectly explain his humor!   "Daddy Needs a Drink" is a comedic relief book that tells real-life stories from a father's perspective and how he handles everyday situations. 

Jonathan and I were also able to get away for a "babymoon."  We have heard from several people, that it is so important to take a vacation while it's just the "two of us."  We went to Gulf Shores, mainly  because our nephew Micah was playing in the Baseball World Series!  What an experience!! We had such a great time watching him play ball, but also getting some beach time in.   

SO it just so happens the only book I had to read whilst laying out was the ultimate of mother-to-be literature.  It is quite the information book, and I've actually learned alot! :)

We also had some family time with the Scheer clan!  We were in "close quarters" in our condo.  It's a good thing we love each other! 

Two days after we returned home from Vacation was our next doctor's appointment.  It was crazy how much he had grown in just 4 weeks!! I must admit, he's handsome already, and looks JUST like his daddy!  I'll refrain from sonogram photos... even though I think they are absolutely precious!   That same day, we took on the large task of completing our baby registry.  WOW. Talk about a stressful day at Target!! Thank goodness my sister Robin and Mom were there to guide us through, because there is no way I would have made it out of there with any progress. Overall, we had a good time and were able to pick out some necessary items!  We later went to Babies R US to scope things out.   That was another overwhelming experience, but we survived!! ha!

I am currently 25 weeks, but I do not have an updated picture.  This is my latest photo at 24 weeks.  I am definitely starting to show!  I have a good bit of energy, but am not sleeping too well during the night.  I don't have any specific cravings.  Instead, I crave EVERYTHING. I feel like I eat all the time, but I suppose Auri needs it more than I do! :)  

That's all for now.  I apologize for the lengthy post, and picture overload!!  
Until next time!

MB

Mother's Day

One of my favorite days of the year is Mother's Day.  It is such a sweet day to pamper and cater to your mother's every need.  This year was extra special for me.  Not only am I abundantly thankful that I can spend one more holiday with the most special woman in my life, but I was feeling the motherly love in a different way. I was able to spend the weekend with my sisters and my mom, who are all such Godly examples of motherhood.  Although, I have not given birth, I am a mother-to-be. OH my goodness, that word is intimidating.  Someone, in the near future, will call ME "Mama". It makes my heart smile so big I just don't even know how to contain myself.  As most people know, pregnancy is full changes, and well, hormones are taking over.  I am a mess.  I have always been a semi-sensitive person, but seriously I cry at least once a day.  Shedding tears while watching Iron Man 3... seriously MB pull it together.

I am 17 weeks, and baby Walsh is slowly making an appearance.  It is sometimes hard to watch my body change and gain weight, but remembering the reason I am changing makes the whole experience Wonderful.  My baby bump! 

So my second trimester has been pleasant!  I have the occasional exhaustion and nausea, but other than that, life is grand!  I am in the cleaning/organizing stage where I am slowly getting rid of things in my closet that needed to be gone 5 years ago!  Making room for my maternity section has been fun.  Too bad I can't fit in any of them yet! I don't want to rush my belly growing, but I sure am ready to show it off! :)  We have began making plans for the nursery.  Paint colors are selected, and we have agreed on a theme!  Now we just need to get to work!  And by "we" I mean Jonathan. He is, like, the best painter I ever saw ;) love you babe!
We find out the gender in 10 days! I can't quite place an emotion to how I am feeling.  I am excited, anxious, concerned and carefree all at the same time.  I honestly have a maternal instinct that we are having a boy!  I don't really have an explanation why, and all the "wives tales" are giving me reasons to think it's a girl... but either way there is absolutely no way to know until that magical sonogram reveals the truth! Jonathan and I haven't decided about how to reveal the gender.  We have agreed to find out with just him and I in the ultrasound room, to have our moment.  I love the idea of having a baby gender reveal party, super cute idea! and Wow, you people are getting creative! However, the thought of getting everyone together royally stresses me out.  We may do a short and sweet reveal at the house with just family, but that is to be determined...

In my next post, I will be unveiling the big question... Pink or Blue!?! 

What's your vote???


MB

No news is Good news

As the saying goes, No news is good news.  This is not always accurate, but in my case, it absolutely is. To my loyal readers, I have not abandoned you I promise!  It has been several weeks since I have been able to update my blog. However, I am trying to get back on track! So, Buckle up readers!  
Lots is happening in the Walsh Household, so here we go... 
Let me just start with how amazing my Mom is doing.  Her continued progress leaves me speechless, and the miraculous works God has proven in her life astounds me everyday.  She is still battling cancer, but she is fighting hard.  She completed another round of chemotherapy last week and she is doing GREAT.   She is weak at times, but mostly doing very well.  She is maintaining her daily routine complete with cooking, reading, exercise, and such.  We continue to pray for her continued progress, and for now the Doctors are very pleased with the results.  Praise the Lord! 

In other news, Jonathan graduated from La Tech! Woohoo!!  Let me just tell you... we have been waiting for this day for a long time, and it was quite an event! Being a college student never was a strong priority for him. He has always provided for me as his family and worked so extremely hard, in which case I am very thankful for.  After being a student on and off for several years (technically he took off for 5 years) he is finally a college graduate.  I am so very proud of him!  He has worked really hard at building his career as a soccer coach, and now with a college degree, his dream will become more real.  He will continue to coach Ruston High soccer, as well as maintain his role as Director of Coaching for Northeast Louisiana Soccer Association (NELSA).  He absolutely LOVES his job and I adore being able to see the passion in his work. 

Oh and one more thing... I'M PREGNANT!  Yes, folks, it is true.  Jonathan and I are expecting a baby in October!
We are SO excited!  This has been an extremely hard time for my family over the past few months, and God chose to give us the best gift!  I think we all needed some good news around here!  Telling my Mom was probably the best feeling.  She screamed with excitement, cried tears of joy, and hugged me so hard. I love to see her happy.   I am praying to the good Lord, that my Mom will be around for many, many years to watch our child grow up and to have a relationship.
I have heard of the kind of love that is instantaneous between a mother and a child.  It's nothing less than true.  I love this child so much already.  My constant prayer is for a healthy child, and for us as parents to provide the very best home and Godly example.  Parenthood is a bit intimidating to me, but luckily Jonathan and I have been very blessed to be surrounded by sets of parents, within our own parents and siblings, that have been outstanding examples of how to raise a family.  
I am 12 weeks and feeling it.  Some days I feel like I'm showing (just a tiny bump) but mostly I just look like I've gained 5 pounds. I am very fortunate to have not had any morning sickness that most pregnant women dread.  I feel queezy in the evenings and feel uncontrollably tired at times, but other than that I feel great!  As long as I don't let myself get too hungry, I am golden!  I feel like I eat All. The. Time.  Which is fine, I'm eating for 2, right?!   I have done alot of research and reading (perhaps even too much) but seriously, In the first trimester, your body is working so hard to make room and prepare for a baby it is equivalent to climbing up a mountain! All. Day. Long.   Well, people, I have been climbing that mountain - one nap at a time!  I am not a napper, seriously, I don't like to burn daylight.   However, if I can find time in my day, I was all about taking full advantage of a power nap!
So, part of my everyday routine is to go to Mama and Daddy's house for coffee. Things haven't changed, except my mom is super strict on making sure I have PLENTY of breakfast, and no artificial sweetener in my DECAF coffee.  OH lord, anyone who knows me knows how much I love coffee.  Seriously I drink it all day long.  Well, this has been the biggest challenge thus far. At the beginning I was limiting myself to half a cup in the morning, and MAYBE another half in the afternoon.  It's funny how your body adapts and changes habits, turns out I don't even drink coffee most days  and I'm making it just fine! Jonathan has been so sweet and catering to my every need.  He doesn't exactly always know what to do with my "attitude adjustments" but he is certainly hanging in there and is handling me well.   He is already such a great husband, I just know he is going to be a great father.  I can hardly wait to see him in action. 

So you should be all caught up now! Lots of new conversations and so much love to go around. Jonathan and I are thrilled to start a family and to share this news.  It has been a hard-kept secret, but baby is healthy and growing!  

Until next time!

MB

Committed.

I am 100% committed to three things.  God, my family, and my community.  Whereas, it has been an extremely trying time for me over the past few months, I have received endless blessings and affirmation that I am right where I need to be. My hope is that these three things are evident in my daily life, and anyone who knows me will be able to see my commitments. 

God has proven his endless love for my family.   Although we aren't quite ready to share the explicit details of what the doctor visits have entailed , we are so very grateful and appreciative of your prayers and support.  It has been an extremely difficult time for us, and yet we continue to see God's mercy and grace in every situation.  In the Bible, John teaches us that miracles are granted to us so that we may see the significance of something greater.  Miracles are signs that point us to what really matters.  I believe that the miraculous works God has granted in my mom's life have taught my entire family lessons of love, patience, and perseverance.  Not only have these miracles affected our lives, but other's lives who may not even know her.  She has such a graceful, amazing story.  And although she is very reserved in how the public knows her story, I am privileged to tell it.  And when there's not so good news, God is still holding my hand and teaching me how to receive Peace and understanding.

Through all of this, I have been very blessed to join Heritage Realty Group as a Real Estate Agent.  I have been able to focus my extra "energy" on selling Real Estate, and so far it has been such a rewarding experience.  Robyn Brown is not only my broker, but the best mentor I could ask for.  She has been such an inspiration to me.   Her support, through personal and business matters, has been an extreme comfort though all of this.   In a nutshell, for those of you who don't know, I began my Real Estate education and training this past summer.  After many, many hours (147 to be exact) I received my Real Estate license in November.  A few days later, I joined Robyn in Orlando, Florida for the National Real Estate Convention.  WOW what an awesome experience!! To be surrounded by professionalism, success, and innovative individuals was truly motivating.  I came back with a new-found motivation that would help me fulfill my purpose in my community.  Whereas I am still working for Tech, I am also involved with Heritage Realty.  I'm not sure where either of these opportunities will take me, but I am certainly willing to find out.  I have been employed at Tech for 5 years participating in recruiting, counseling, and coordinating transfer student enrollment.  It is such a personally rewarding job in helping students, whether they are from another Country or born and raised in Ruston, to find their place at our University. Louisiana Tech REALLY is such a great place to be, and I love to share my experience and knowledge with new people on a daily basis.  I also use these skills and experience to transfer into the Housing Market, as I am continually meeting new people.  Because I am from Ruston, I was just so sure that I knew every single person in my hometown.  Well, I am here to tell you... I was wrong!  Turns out, I meet someone new almost every day! I enjoy creating new relationships, and It's pretty awesome to be able to help impact the Ruston community.  Promoting our great town, along with the foundation of Louisiana Tech has been culmination of greatness for me.

I have found myself with an inner struggle of emotions.  I am happier in my life than I have ever been, but how can this be?  I have exerted every ounce of sadness and heartbreak at the same time.  God is teaching me how to balance my emotions and to let it be. I am far from being able to perfect the balance, but I am certainly trying.  I used to think I struggled with patience, and while in some cases I still do, the more I struggle, the more I learn in the end.  I am forever learning. Trusting the Lord with everything has been my stronghold.  Although I will strive to be the perfect wife, and the perfect daughter, and the perfect business woman, I know that as long as I trust in God and his will for my life, I'm gonna be okay.

My miracle mom

Although I am not skilled to understand why or how certain events happen, I do know that this is all part of God's special plan.   I find comfort in believing God's plan, but it certainly does not make it easy to experience it.  One of the reasons I began blogging was to have an outlet so that I can channel my emotional roller coaster of a life.  Well, let me just say the roller coaster isn't stopping anytime soon.  I honestly try to see the good in every situation.  While my mom has made extreme improvements in her physical and mental health, She is still forced to battle the original challenge, Cancer.  I hate cancer.  Yall, I really really hate it.  Mama has suffered through so many obstacles, and she is nothing less than a walking miracle.  She amazes me everyday.  Three whole months ago she was in a coma, struggling to live.  Today, she is cooking Sunday dinner, and if it is even possible, i'm pretty sure her cooking is back better than ever! and so the Sunday dinner ritual continues!
Because she no longer needs healthcare assistance, we are over the moon excited that she is HOME!  We pray that she continues to progress as she falls back into her everyday way of life.  Because she had many other health issues to control,  cancer and chemotherapy treatments were kind of on the back burner.   Well, now that she's well, Daddy took her to her oncologists last week and we received bad news. In October we received good news that her tumor had shrunk by 30%, well now it is getting larger. We don't know how much larger. I mean seriously, how much bad news can one woman take? I truly can't imagine how she feels, but I all know to do is just love her as hard as I can.  My heart hurts. so bad.  She is on my mind every minute of the day, and I feel so helpless.  My daddy is still her stronghold and is there for her every step of the way.  Because chemo is no longer an option, it appears the only other option is to remove the tumor.   Originally when she was diagnosed, she thought surgery was the worse case scenario. Now, she believes chemo is almost worst than cancer itself.  She doesn't really talk about it much, and I can see how terrified she is when we do talk about it.  And the truth is, I am scared too.  I have faith in God's Will for our lives, but I am truly scared that she won't be pleased with the outcome.  And so the saying goes, "when Mama aint happy, nobody's happy."  As her family, we will  be there for her no matter what. Prayer is such a powerful thing, and I do not take it lightly.  However, sometimes I feel as though I'm praying for the wrong miracle. I just want her to be happy, I want her to know just how much she is loved by her family, friends, and community.   I know that Mama has an abundance of prayer warriors out there. Please continue to lift her up in prayer.  And also my Dad.  He's such a strong man, but he needs a little lovin' too. :)
It's true, I have the greatest parents in the world who have taught me endless life lessons on how to love, live, and be a positive influence.  I am so very blessed.  

a merry little Christmas

Christmas festivities kicked off in full force.  Just like every year, the week before Christmas just sneaks up on me and all the sudden I have three parties to attend (all in the same night), outfits to buy, presents to wrap and just not enough time to do it all in!  Because this year was supposed to be a stress-free year, I made an extra effort to take a deep breathe and not overdo myself with my obligations.
So it all began when Jonathan and I got a hint of Christmas Spirit and set up our tree and decorated our house with white lights.  We always decorate a little bit, perhaps some garland around the front door, but this year we went all out.  Complete with two Christmas trees on each side of the house (for symmetrical purposes) and lights on the porch. Only one confession, neither of my tress are actually decorated.  BUT the lights sure look great from the road! :)  This house has never seen so much light, and I love it!  Pictures never really give credit to the beauty of Christmas lights, but we can try, right?

And then the Christmas parties began.   Between Jonathan and I, we were booked with Party invites.  We weren't able to attend all of them, but we certainly tried!  Unfortunately, I only have pictures from one, and it just so happens to be a tacky sweater party.  The party was at our friends John and Jenny Juneau's house.  And boy, was it tacky!  Just to enlighten you, Nathan wore green tights.  Enough said.   Such a fun party with great company, food and laughs! (and maybe even a little egg nog) :)

Not only is the week before Christmas crazy busy, but it's also Jonathan's birthday!! And let's just be real honest, yall know I love a birthday! December 22nd is the big day for J-Man and I try and go all out for him.  He never asks me to, and he never wants to make a big deal for celebrating his day of birth, but because it is so close to Christmas I want to set aside that day to not be in the mix of the holiday bustle.  Jonathan is such a warm, loving and inspiring person.  I am so very glad he was born.  I thank God everyday for our marriage and friendship and the love we share.  I plan on sharing many many more birthdays with this man, so Jonathan buckle up (if you haven't already in the past 9 years, you are about feel the birthday love!!)
This year for his birthday we were able to go to the Cowboys vs. Saints game in Dallas!  WHAT AN AWESOME TIME!!! Most people that have ever had a conversation with Jonathan knows three things about him from the get-go.  He plays soccer, he has a huge heart, and he is a die-hard cowboys fan.  He grew up rooting for the cowboys, and the man knows more about that franchise than should be possible.  He isn't always the greatest sport when the Cowboys are in play, but he is the definition of a true fan in any circumstances.  We made the trip to Dallas early Sunday morning with our good friends Betsy and Becca.  We were so anxious to get there, we arrived at 9:00 am for the noon game!  I can't tell yall how much fun we had! Even though our Cowboys didn't pull out the win, the game was such a great one to experience! It was the perfect day to celebrate Jonathan's birthday!

 and then just like that it was Christmas Eve!  Whaattt??  We stayed in Shreveport Sunday night at Jonathan's Dad's house.  I woke up early the next morning (feeling the extra weight from gameday food) and attempted to run.  Well, I ended up running 8 miles! Whoa! Especially since I haven't run more than 4 miles in months!! But it was Exhilarating and such a beautiful day!  Later that day, Jonathan and I went to his Mom's house to celebrate Christmas.  We had a great time catching up, re-living our Dallas trip, and opening gifts!  We jetted back to Ruston just in time to make the Christmas Eve service at The Bridge.  It was a beautiful candlelight service, and the perfect kick-off to celebrate Jesus' birthday.  We then head to Uncle Glenn's house for a family gathering.  In my previous post i mentioned my childhood memories of attending Aunt Ann's Christmas Eve party.  In the past few years, this has migrated to Uncle Glenn's house, and just as fun as ever!  This is a big deal because this is also Mama's first social outing.  and she did Awesome!!  I was so very glad she was able to spend these moments with us.  She was socializing, laughing, holding babies, just like normal!  Praise God for her healing progress!
So Christmas Day was quite the dreary day, but it didn't hold us back any! Jonathan and I were extra lazy (normally I don't condone this type of behavior, ;) but man I was tired from the previous week!)  Robin and Stacy and their families were in Ruston by 2:00 that afternoon.  And just like that, everyone was together feelin' the Christmas love.  After some snacks and socializing... the games broke out and things got serious.  Let's just say I have a ..umm...a competitive family.  I am usually the one that is losing, and I get my feelings hurt, blah blah... BUT this day was different.   Anyone ever played Cranium??  let's just take a moment to appreciate that Jonathan and I won.  probably the first time ever!  I will hold these reigns until the next time I sorely lose :)

After our massive and AMAZING dinner, we gathered around and listened to the kids read the bible.  There is something special about children reading the Christmas story that is very touching.  Then Daddy orchestrated that each adult take turns and talk about your favorite childhood Christmas memories.  This is something new for our family, because let's face it, we just want to cut straight to opening presents!  But like I explained in a previous post, things were going to be different this year.  Our focus was on family, and celebrating Jesus, rather than the abundance of left over wrapping paper.  And we accomplished just that.  We probably sat around for 2 hours discussing our favorite memories.  And let me tell you, things got emotional up in the Scriber household.  We laughed and cried, and truly enjoyed each other.  No cell phones, no television, just us.  I just love my family so much.  Many of you know how much our family has had to overcome, but with God's love and the love we have for each other, I am blessed.  I can literally FEEL the love we have in the room.   My favorite part of the day was when we gave Mama her gift.  Robin organized for us to make her a personalized quilt.  Each of us, including the kids, designed a quilt square and then we had it made into a blanket for her to take where-ever she goes.  She was so very touched when she opened it.  I don't think I have ever seen her this full of emotion and happiness.  Each square was a personal touch to what she meant to us.  Also, giving her hope and inspiration to believe that God still has her in our lives for a reason.  Although she is the most courageous and loving person I know, I also believe she finds it difficult for her to believe it sometimes.  Our prayer is that she never gives up, and knows that we are always here for her.  And now, with our handmade quilt, she can literally feel us around her at any time.

I pray that one day I will look back and be able to tell the Christmas memory of 2012 and what a perfect, beautiful day is was.